I’m tryna live inside out my means
I woke up inside a dream
Whispers inside a scream
Trying to find “me” inside of team
Giving while there’s nothing left
Living inside of death
Trying to find the “why’s” inside my ex
Finding more inside of less
I’m living inside out my means
I’m an accomplished contradiction is what that means
Spirit
Go Girl
Go head girl, get ahead girl
But don’t be giving head and don’t be spreading your legs girl
You lost playin it safe, now you living on the edge girl
Keep your distance from those predators, don’t keep sharing your bed girl
Sometimes the company you keep will keep you from comfortable sleep
You may lay awake scared to see your face in a dream,
Because the things you faced chasing your dream
The best thing you can do is think
Don’t try to numb it in a drink
The best thing you can do is blink
In that mirror above your sink
Don’t sink, never crawl up and shrink
You may not be far from the brink
It’s easy to fall in the dark, you may feel like you fallin apart
But you came too far just to fall
Never stray far from your heart, remember to follow your heart
And…go head girl, get ahead girl
Son Symbolize
In here, every day I am Sunzu
Every day is a Sunday
Because every day is my son’s day
Every day I’m missing my sons’ rise
So every day I’m on a mission to vision the sunrise
Every day my tears end up sun-dried
Every day I can’t wait to see the sun outside
Symbolize, every day I’m in wait of seeing my sons outside
Today, there was no sun outside
And so I ate eggs, though I don’t like them, at least they were sunny side
What it feels to be young
She craves genuine people, though she’s scared of the truth
She knows she’s beautiful, but attention is proof
She loves mature men, yet validated by youth
She wears spanks, push-up bras, and dies her hair at the roots
She loves work, but tired of heels and pantsuits
At home she jumps into a sweatshirt, leggings and goes out in Ugg boots
She watches TV, sips wine, while spooning a pint of ice cream
All while daydreaming about the days back when she was 19
Oh what it feels to be young
Love will make you
The things that love will make you do
It’s made for two if you make your move
The things that love will make you do
The crazy things he made you do
The things that love will make you do
The amazing things he made for you
The things that love will make you do
Start making room, because love makes a groom
The things that love will make you do
It’s a maze, but an amazing view
The things that love will make you do
An amazing truth, just. made. for. you.
Happy New Years
I used to think that titles were cliche. A name needed to affirm the important things in our life. There’s never a better time to put titles to the test than when you are in a position to where you can’t give more than you recieve. Here’s to real friendship. Y’all never judged me. Never left me. Always believed in me. Always loved me regardless my circumstances. Where would I be, in my darkest moments, without y’all. 2017, the year y’all picked me back up after I was brought so low literally surviving 2016. Y’all always saw me for me, not my mistakes. Humanizing, when I was weighed down by my shame, guilt and loneliness, y’all restored my confidence, reminded me of my promise and gave me unconditional love amongst moments I cherished. Friends, the only cliche is that the title no longer does any justice to the meaning. Happy New Years, and thanks for always keeping it real with me, regardless what real meant at those times. I Love Y’all