ashamed
because I tried to be
‘white’
at my best moments
then by default
‘black’
at my worst
ashamed
because I aspired
to be like white people
ashamed
because I aspired
to escape being a black man
lost
because when I hurt
nobody white understands me
some things only black people could understand
lost
because when I hurt
I feel black
only we, understand us
angry
because this world
influenced me to trust white people
more than my own people
happy
because I’m black at my best
and only getting better
because finally
I love my. black. self.
occupied freedom
there has been casualties
and fatalities
because this occupied illusive reality
was founded and liberated upon sustained brutalities
and pie in the sky fallacies
without consistent generational challenging
racism is likened to America’s first and longest lasting allergy
and its impact varies based on your color and salary
sadomasochists
America
People
why does it take inflicting pain
to stop you from inflicting pain
why does it take inflicting pain
to change the inflicted pain
and heal, the afflicted pain
or does it just feel too good to you
the chemistry of change
chemistry has three descriptions
liquid
solid
and gas
change is also a science
but in order for it to be lasting
as a liquid-
it must be ever changeable in the way that it adapts to whatever environment it exists within
as a solid-
it must be formidable and sure, absolute and objective in its resolutions and foundations as common ground, so it can be cohabited and lived upon
as a gas-
it must be colorless and for all anywhere equally, seen but unseen, physically indescribable in that it is transparent and honest
less ain’t more
we need
less white antics
and more white allies
less white advantage
and more black vantage
less speeches
and more performances
less denial
and more admission
less passivity
and more involvement
less color
and more culture
less exclusivity
and more inclusiveness
more questions
and even more answers
and most of all
we need LOVE
duty bound
preserve Life
reserve Property
restore Order
but which are most valued