Culture

why does a proud black man,
make for an angry and threatened white man?
why does a revered and privileged white man,
make for a subjugated and defeated black man?

why is there a direct relationship between the two
can not one’s effect be a positive
that doesn’t directly impact the other negatively
what is the heart of the line of correlation between the two

can not both exist
in a state of peace
and harmony
with one another

or is it something deeper
darker
prideful
greedy
threatening
that lies beneath

is it the nefarious after-effects of colonialism and slavery
and the crisis of humanity brought on the rewards reaped
coupled with the economic system of competition
that perpetuates social Darwinism

one’s survival or progress
being a direct threat to the other’s
one can only survive or thrive
survival of the fittest by process of elimination
or force
and if they must coexist

one must be superior
and the other, inferior
this is the consciousness of this country
this is the reality of its people
this is the reason why coexistence isn’t natural
because the existence of both here,
were and have been a continual matter of force

the forcing upon
and the forced upon
by any
and all
means necessary

and until the way the dollar is made
the way a full and prosperous life is perceived
and
the skeletons of modern position and privilege are rectified
than coexistence will always feel insecure
and humanity will always feel like a threat to survival

so the white and black man
even with the rare bonds of brotherhood forged amongst some
will always be in an antagonist role with each other

one’s gain
will always feel
like the other’s loss
whether it be
money
job
opportunity
power
prestige
or and especially,
woman

and that’s just straight facts

I’m pretty sure the dying words of Abel to Cain was,
“I thought we was brothaz?…”
and Cain probably said,
“We are, but if we stay so
then I will feel less able
having to share
so I rather the world be
“Abel-less”

Cain,
killed Abel
Desire,
killed breath
and so we are lost
in a land of wandering
wondering
who do I have to take from
or keep away from
in order for me and mine
to survive

wisdoms philosophies and religions
of yesterday
have been ransacked today
converted to structured forms of manipulation
for social control, subjugation,
exploitation and ultimately
power, position, and prestige
piety, a lost word and concept
so the people will believe henceforth
that they are powerless
and in need of saving by people
much more powerful than them
so everyone needs someone
which makes everyone need something
and as long as there is people in need
then their will always be a need
for those whom will supply the demand
therefore count yourself
lucky, blessed worthy, destined
or just plain crafty enough
to become a supplier,
not the one in need, demanding
but if you need to learn how to depend on yourself
well there is a supply of teachers that can fulfill that as well
with wisdoms philosophies and religions of yesterday
stolen for today
in structured forms of manipulation
presented as schools of thought
teaching the mind as the master
over the forgotten lessons, foundation, and truth
of the spirit
which frees you into independency and freedom
but as the mind strengthens
within this temporary world
the spirit weakens
from its eternal stature
and afflictions arise and increase
to supply the demand of deeper needs
because you will have symptoms
rooted from a root neglected
but to ail this,
there are spiritual teachers that supply that demand as well
some will assist in creating in you independence
but most will keep you dependent
and call it healing
but never fear, nor worry
for as long as you desire it
we have everything we’ve always needed in this life
its just been stripped of its true form
disguised in plain sight
and as it lies right in front of your eyes
it deceives you
making you believe that it isn’t there
that it is too far away and too hard to grasp
so you will wonder and wander
seeking someone and something to supply that demand
therefore you will become insane
because you will continually expect different results
from the same efforts
by trying to fix a problem that is being made permanent,
with temporary solutions
because you are unaware of
the deep desire and effort of people to exploit people
and you are just an unwitting puppet
a sheep in the flock
chasing behind wolves in shepherd clothing
in the guise of saviors
or an elixir
which only binds you
hides the pain
by blinding you to it
believing numbness is healing
and strength
making you powerful and independent
because the only way people are fixed in this world
is to become suppliers
to a flock of demanders
and you demand to be supplied with a solution to your despair
today, in this life
your power comes from the consistent ability
to fulfill every demand of supply
with plenty leftovers to spare
that you can do what you wish with
gorge yourself even
so knowledge is power
it shackles or it frees you
because it creates the things coveted which determine power
that determine freedom
or imprisonment
as long as you choose to use it
because the truth, power, and freedom is within you
it always has been
you just only need to be aware enough
to access its deep recesses
and you will be as independent
and empowered
as we were all created to be
the mind can not heal the spirit
nor can it properly comprehend it
a spirit influenced life
is more fruitful than a mind driven one
you do not master and free yourself through your mind
but through the spirit
rationality is a limitation of the sources at your expense
utilizing a fraction of what is available of the expanse of your being
practicality can only fragment
and put in small portions the vast well that is your true self
therefore structures put in place
using practical and rational methods
can never turn on the valve of spirit
so that it flows freely like a faucet
freeing you
they will only confine you

I don’t expect you to save me
hell
I don’t even expect for you to help me
honestly I expect you to be more in my way
than staying out of it
or even creating a share of a way
but I prefer you to move out of my way
while I am creating my own
and if you choose not to
then do not bemoan and protest my going through you
if I can not get around you
all things do not involve
nor revolve around you
if I need your help, offer it
because I’m done asking
when the problem is plain as day
and if you join me, learn to follow
before you remark on how it is led
your face is what has kept me back
it doesn’t need to be in front in order to get me ahead
just in the masses is good enough
there’s enough conditions placed upon changing my mine
strange the time some choose to speak
is not until I choose to act
weren’t you just quiet anyway?
shhhhh
thank you
you had your time and outlets
it’s mine now

could you imagine
if you took being duplicitous or ambiguous
to the extreme of imagination
it’d be like
not only being of two minds
but literally having two minds
and those minds still control what and how you see and perceive things
here’s the catch
you’d still only have two eyes
and each eye corresponds with the mind it stems from
how would you know view the world
discern anything
or ever make a choice
now let’s go one extra extreme mile
what if each eye and its coordinating mind
corresponding with certain and opposing cultures, colors, genders, or or
ohhh ohhh, or opposing historical figures
or warring ideals and principles?
could you imagine one eye seeing like Trump and the other like Obama?
Or maybe a Far-Right Republican and a Far-Left Democrat?
maybe both on opposing sides of abortion laws
integration and segregation?!
maybe something as trivial as directions
what of Christian and Muslims
religion and science
black and white life?
how confused and cross-eyed would you be?
you’d be in a constant state of war of some ideal, method, belief, perception
just how it is right now
only all encompassed and embodied into one human body
and everyone outside of them would observe that person as upside down, backwards, crazy, hypocritical, and lost
is this how people look at our country?
when you think about it, division is so sophomoric, moronic, and ridiculous
because in every way, we are all interdependent
said simply, we need each other
and without others, who would what we think we are be?
no one wants to be the same,
yet we war to be different in order to make everyone believe and feel the same
conquering each others ability to differentiate ourselves
while qualifying worth to those differences
instead of personal pride with allowance of other’s differentiating degrees of self
we are the one image and many expressions of God
ridiculously expressing ourselves as separate
those separate expressions separating us because of our image
an image we create as opposites
upholding it above all others
imagine God fighting God’s self-ridiculous
humanity evolves over its differences
not similarities
we grow apart
not together
what a thing we do with the life we’ve been given
we work harder against each other
not smarter with each other
the ridiculousness of it all
we are just ridiculous