Who are you in the face of resistance
even if just for an instance
imagine something threatening your existence
imposing upon you with persistence
insistently disrupting your consistence
diminishing and conquering your commitments
if you really thought about it for a minute
who would you be when you’re finished…
solitary mind. set
Being comfortable with quiet seems natural
this c.o. can’t sit still, he can’t keep quiet
he keeps fidgeting and making noise
I’m not moving, I’m in my space
he keeps trying to start conversation
he’s uncomfortable with quiet
I lived, adapted, thrived and developed in it
when you’re without, you do more with less
solitary confinement isn’t segregation
its sensory deprivation
I found an inner voice in that isolation and silence
I recognize my dissociative states
issues I had before during and after that time more emboldened yet more easily embraced
I surf mental and emotional instabilities like ocean waves
what was unnatural became natural
because to show weakness,
despite being deprived aint allowed
antisocial behaviors take flight
though I have company
now I’m my own friend
talking to myself is easy, before I was my own enemy
I don’t need company
company is now decor
company is an amenity, not a need
all I need is myself, everyone else is bonus
this is normal, but its my new norm
all senses are now an overload
I automatically pick up on every detail in all sights and sounds
hunger pains don’t break me
I won’t crack, nor cave
I’m more animal in focus than human
no distractions distract me
I can tune out the whole world
but I know what you expect, so I’ll act normal
though you created this new norm, this insanity
and truthfully, I like it
but not everyone is so thankful
others break
others become worse
because the real truth is that humans are social creatures
and once you take that away
you create animals
and not everyone makes it back from the transformation
…but I did, so I’m blocking this c.o. out
until he asked me if I’m a trump supporter
look at me…really?
most people just really aren’t comfortable with themselves
at that time
he may not have known it
but he was looking to an inmate to provide him comfort
so I gave what he needed
while at the same time, having this convo with myself
solitary mind. set
Some inside scripts
It’s about positioning yourself
if they ain’t on what u on, cut your hours short
take the shortest route
simplicity, is this best form of sophistication
demand what u give
don’t take the losses u can’t afford
for what u want to get, what are u willing to lose
as far as outside relationships, make it known-“this is what I want, this is what I need, and this is what I have available”
if they give u 10% and expect 100%, that ain’t good math
be who u is, not who u was
don’t talk too much, but speak up and make ya self heard
if tell u them the truth, they’ll lie to themselves
everybody got an aim, so never let ya left know what ya right doin
people will do what u allow
we’ve all done dumber things on less principle, maximize every risk
cuz everything ain’t worth reacting to
if u let them pull your strings, then u a puppet
gangstas do what they wanna do, suckas do what they can-find yourself in the middle
what they eat don’t make u shit
do your time, don’t worry bout the next man
maintain your boundaries
go out and stand up as a man, with your dignity integrity intact
know your role, know your surroundings-
there will always be weasels, possums, snakes and rats…there will also be lions tigers gorillas and bears…gazelles have it the worst
I don’t wanna exist
I don’t wanna exist
I wanna live
if I can not live
then let me die
I rather die
when everyone that loves me, lives a lie
I don’t wanna lie no more, I die inside-
every time I crawl away, and try to hide
I don’t wanna walk
I wanna fly
if I can not fly
then let me fall
I rather fall
when everyone around me, never stands tall
I don’t wanna stand with my back against the wall
I’m not afraid to trip, I rather give my all-
trying to fly fearlessly, not so afraid I walk
Pandemic
What came first
fear,
or
panic?
Did fear, create the panic?
or
Did panic, create the fear?
Then what created the discrimination that ensued
opportunity
Fear is an opportunity for truth to surface
and the truth these days,
is good enough reason to panic
because discrimination is still-
the real pandemic
When we react, we don’t have the ability to use our full set of cognitive skills, let alone our whole heart, we just make do with what the moment provides instead of providing the moment by becoming proactive which gives us time to associate both our minds, intellect, imagination and creativity and our hearts compassion and empathy.
We are flawed, so nothing can be wholly stopped, but we can negate our lack of effort and think more for ourselves and if then able, become more and then do more for others.
This pandemic is a poignant example of our humanity, fears, and connection to each other.
It shows both our worst and best selves.
How quickly we come together as one in any way possible, and how quickly we alienate, isolate and discriminate each other thinking of only the one which is self.
So I invite you to not only see the bad, not only cave to the panic, but search for where you can innovate compassion and your humanity when not only responding to moment but in the creation of them.
Crisis shouldn’t be our only motive.
Panic shouldn’t be our only catalyst.
Our degrees of separation has never been so clear.
I invite you to become more intimate with life, deep and personable, seeking and exploring, healing and connecting, feeling and envisioning, leaping bounds over boundaries, not succumbing to or contently more comfortable in its paradigms and limitations.
Don’t just go with the flow.
Don’t just stoop to the pattern.
Be a trailblazer, spend time.
I invite you to listen more; we have so many time saving devices that do nothing but keep us at distance and with less time. That is a choice; priorities aren’t prioritized. Instead we try to fit all things in the need and must category.
And in doing so, we miss our mark, we look over the detail and we fall short.
More can be done with less if you weave the least impactful from the most.
Less is more sometimes.
Listen.
Hear.
Connect.
Envision.
Impact.
And then empower.
Both self and others.
Short cuts succeed most at cutting effort short and therefore achieving less than potential.
Right now, lives are being lost and lives are being changed forever.
Not only those out there providing for their families, but also those in here who were on the way to getting that chance to contribute to their families and start over.
But this is where we are.
And this will end.
Like most things,
so the question is,
who will you be when the smoke clears,
and the ashes take flight in the wind
and the rubble remains-
Waiting for someone to see it for more than broken,
but something ready to be used for a greater good,
re-imagined,
and therefore
rebuilt even greater than before.
Who are you now?
Because the next moment is waiting for you.
Alexander Pike said, “What we do for ourselves dies with us, what we do for others and the world remains and is immortal”
How to change the world
Find your inner power
to empower-
self, and all
directing your thoughts
allowing them to guide you
your speech,
beliefs,
and actions
manifesting your desired path
think to do,
and become
transcend thoughtlessness
and thinking to think
thinking hopelessly,
or even hopefully-
halts your power
claim, and then enforce, your power
bury barriers
conquer trying
and become
become powerful
using more than intellect
engage your insight and imagination
engineering reflection
and harnessing foresight
use compassion as your compass
both for self,
and others
allow love-
self love
and love for all-
to ignite your passions
dare to embrace
and fly free
soaring on a knowing impulse
honing a oneness of instincts
exploring a new understanding of feeling
discovering introspective and innovative wisdoms
striving to know your authentic self
through fearlessness
courageous defying second thoughts
impulse is your soul reaching
passion is your spirit yearning
desire is your mind indulging
and love,
is your heart exploring
instincts will then be the working of all these things
demonstrating and declaring,
your highest expressions of self
living is transcending focus on worldly ways
and navigating the world in your way
using emotions as identifiers of experience
being moved by the causes in the world
that call to you
causing you to move consciously-
to do something compassionately
loving boldly
negating fearsignoring perception
deaf to judgement
fiercely standing apart
to become whole
and create wholeness-
oneness with all by example
believing one person can change the world
believing yourself, powerful enough-
To Change The World