Transparent
No parents
And what’s apparent
A product of my environment – I’m a parrot
But now.. I’m a Parent
Trauma
Eyes Open
Eyes open with no view in here
Hate fumed with the many hues in here
Closed minds with no room in here
The putrid perfume of doom looms in here
Time stole my dreams, no Martin Luther here
Pictures of my ex-stowed away like souvenirs
Lockdown, lights out
Loved ones barely write now
My sons are riding bikes now
My ex and baby mama got new dudes that they like now
Out of sight, out of mind
Out for mine, alpha mind
Make fire from the alkalines, just to cloud my mind
From these guys with their hand signs pantomimed
I’m dazed in this maze from my ways but I’ve paid the for the price
But dear Lord, I only feel safest at night.
High Strung
I got the news-
You said the bruise was from a night of booze
The freedoms we lose by the allegiance we choose
What you viewed was a ruse – looted and polluted solutions
An arubics of gruesome illusions
With abuse that looms and consumes
Like a drug… withdraw or cope?
Confusing, the metaphysical intrusions
An emotional nuance or nuisance, fused with
The hue of jewels, inside of a tomb, tied to a noose
On the neck of a muse, just to amuze
And hide the truth
What beauty would blind
With your mind consumed, you viewed your doom,
Proof- to the delusions of love- the knot in the rope.
Love Don’t Live Here
I woke up and opened my eyes to iniquities –
Lies, cries, duplicity and insincerity
Despise, pride and enmity nearing me
Disguised eyes, chastised, surmise and the rise of enemies
In the absence of identity – Lord grant me serenity
Because Love Don’t Live Here
Prison Became Part of My Story
Prison became a part of my story
That would start up my story
I’m talkin about my journey to glory
Not the gurney before me
Because I was the dead walkin
now I’m dying to live
I’m more for ted talkin
Reachin out and tryin to give
I was a kid lost in this world
Caught in a maze of lessons
Now I have kids caught in this world
Lost in a maze of questions
Ironic, the height of my rise
When I was brought to my knees
Iconic, the life in my eyes
When every cough and a sneeze had me nauseous and weak
My new vocational reach
Is motivational speech
Because that pain that’s in you
Is the pain that’s in me
But rain brings change and re-news
So you can shift from blame and aim at your peak
In every way you unique
Everyday is a feat
So my way is to speak
To make a way for the weak, to make a way thru their week
I Know
I know how it feels to lose it all –
Because of a mistake or have it taken from you
To withdraw – you don’t feel any part of your heart
Not that it’s breaking, it’s just breaking from you
To feel naked, vacant, ached and displaced
When facing something or someone adjacent to you
To lose faith – but that’s satan or your own creation
Taking up space so revelations don’t make it to you.