Woman
oh, woman
wherefore art thou
how can your mystery be solved?
why do I believe that you are just to be desired
and your words only entice
how can I not peer at your cleavage
and believe it an invite
how do I not salivate over your angles
and succumb to an appetite
why do I turn your gaze into a wick
fueling me to ignite
how can even your cordial laughs and casual touches
become an added attribute that incites
why do I sexualize your every nuance
seeing you for far less than your insight
why do I fantasize less of sunlight in your presence
dreaming more of midnights
why does my male ego and its exploits
believe your advancements a personal plight and indict
woman
oh woman
how doth my quandary
or am I just left to evolve?
Love
Out the Blue, True Friend, True Sister, True Angel
I started believing in myself cuz u believed in me
and if u believe in it
then I always think to put my beliefs in it
then like the flower blooming from the concrete, I leave it cemented
and I’ve been relentless with my dreams since u woke me up
and if my mind is going nowhere fast, u somehow slow me up
I’ve been a man for years but u help to me grow me up
becuz at times I fall beneath my potential and u keep me owning up
I don’t know how u understand me
or even how u stand me
I really feel like we family
if we not, then what is a family
therapeutic when I can hear about your life just from this vantage
or if we talking prose of a con or talking Randi
u see me whole, even tho I’m damaged
and when it get too hard, u come in and help me manage
u always putting my struggles in perspective
with an effortless touch, u easily clear my perception
to me, in 31 years you’ve lived a life of perfection
that’s including the years and moments you’ve been prone to regret
tho it all worked for the glory of…so u shouldn’t regret it
the way I view u may be a lil excessive
but when preserving a symbol you gotta be protective
cuz when u choosing a best friend u gotta be selective
and when it comes to getting questions answered I come to u without a question
besides the question
I’ve relied on lesser
but I never have to worry about that when I head your direction
ever since my chipped tooth smile in that clustered colored sweater
when your hair touched your Achilles
you been the beezneez
I was blind and u helped me see things
now I can embrace my nature and behold what the breeze brings
back since tether ball and loose shoe strings
and the infatuation with mood rings
when I landed out the blue in two springs
you know back when u had hoop dreams
I’ve always known two things
that’s two deuces
and the definition of what ‘out the blue’ and ‘True’ means
my new life started after I met u though the contrast at first was too much
who would’ve known 20 or so years later this be our story and my new life would start again after we got in touch
you are the epitome of Grace and I love you to infinity and beyond!
energy never dies
Opposites, no..
compliments attract
repelling and compelling
life is so
lust is so so
love is soooo compelling
energy attracts energy
united, a force
I reckon
together
we’re a force
unstoppable
immovable
majestic masters of gravity
the world is ours
as long as we’re one
but
if you want more
well…
compelling,
how oneness can become so repelling
but
energy attracts energy
so
someone else
somewhere
will be equally as compelling
Valentine’s Day 2020
here we are
on this one day of love
which I believe is irony
because since knowing you
every day has been love
but somehow
I have to do the impossible
by culminating what feels like eternity
into one day
but that’s just it
all we have
all we ever had
was one day
and then that day
however slow
or fast
blended into the next day
and still
there we were
and here we are
with all there is
and all we have
in this one day
carrying the weight of the universe
which we’ve somehow fit into one word
called Love
simplicity is a delicacy
I believed too complicated to journey this vast day
that we conclude into a life at its end
even now
I fumble when less words are needed
because how can I capture effect
and all its grandeur
in my limited lexicon
I don’t know the words that exist
but I know that love lives
and I just figured it out
things I see, exist
but things I feel, live
your love gives me life
and this life is worth living
because I feel
I know
I have
your love
the only purpose worth spelling with just four letters
Happy Valentines Day–I Live, I Love You
—
Roses are Red
Violets are Blue
but I have more than just colors and flowers for you
Roses may turn their nose up at me
and Violets may speak truth to my mood every now and then
but no one flower
or bouquet for that matter
can properly present to you the gift that I have
nor can it symbolize the beauty it withholds
because flowers, though gorgeous
they wilt
then die
but what I have,
what I hold
and what I bear
is promise,
it’s sacred
its eternal
and its yours
with this life and space we share and inhabit with others
I got you a priceless gift
I took time to let it mature
so I can unwrap it for you in the right season
and what better time than now
Here’s my Heart
Here’s my Soul
Here’s my Love
all in one
engraved beyond the clouds
from the star crowded galaxy of eternity
Roses are Red
Violets are Blue
but I have more than just colors and flowers for you
—
the first time I heard you say you loved me
my eyes watered,
like young flowers in hungry soil
there first time I realized I loved you
my heart tightened,
like a baby’s hand around your finger
and still,
you yet to lose your grip on my heart
my chest constricts
and my belly flutters
like in a free fall down a mighty rollercoaster
and every word I try to pronounce
exits my mouth like a breathless scream
I realized something
my whole life,
I’ve searched diligently for a cause
but the real wonder
has been in the bliss of your effect
ever since the first time…
—
I knew I loved you
because you know when that one special thing happens
and you know exactly where you were
how you felt
and the exact lay out of the scene?
well, one time I closed my eyes
and I damn near jumped
thinking I’d lost control of my faculties
so I kept closing and opening my eyes
and nothing changed
then I realized
nothing was wrong
you had just imprinted on me so deeply
that even when my eyes were shut
you didn’t go anywhere
you were right there
like live wallpaper at the back of my eyelids
I still saw you as vivid as before
and I knew then
you were both dream and reality
to which there was no escape
and I finally welcomed sleep
just as much as I welcomed waking up to you right there
—
we have so many distractions in the world
its nice to be centered back on love
to decompress and focus on the more important things
calming my monkey mind
but I try to look at you and stay present
stay in the moment
and sometimes the moment overwhelms me
because you have so so soooo many distractions
—
I felt married when I met you
knowing I’d give in to your heart
and give up on chasing others
then, when I married you
I felt fated
believing I knew God in that instant
being placed exactly where His plan had led me
I prayed this prayer so many times
and now,
I had finally been granted it
sweet, sweet serenity
—
after so many years
word lose their glamour
and memories start to infringe upon one another
but feel,
oh the feel
it never loses its touch
your being
your essence your spirit
is like rose pedals
or finger tips
slightly tracing the surface of my flesh
giving rise to my pulse
dilating my eyes
and setting chills to the back of my neck
like the wind whispering intimate secrets at my ears
after so many years
I’m not numb
I’m still young and ripe
like fresh picked grapes from a vineyard
awaiting to be a part of the story of an aging wine
after all these years
I still don’t know enough
and the only way I believe l can tell you that I love you
is to still explore your vastness
as hungry to know even more of you
as I was just to know you
—
I don’t dance
but the things that I’d try for you
I can’t sing
but the things I’d try for you
I can’t cook
but the things I’ll do for you
I don’t clean
but the things you make me do!
—
teddy bears?
check!
roses?
check!
chocolates
check!
grapes?
check!
wine?
check!
skittles?
check!
and umm…
an all expense paid trip away for a night at a Holiday Inn!
check!
Happy Valentines Day!
—
I figure
a great way to teach our kids
about where they came from,
the birds and the bees
and love!
is to explain to them the importance of Valentine’s Day
because without it,
they wouldn’t exist
Happy Valentines Day
Self Love
Your past says not to trust him
you’ve seen a halo under horns
but u don’t see the world how you used to
you embrace the flower with its thorns
but when loneliness starts to creep in
and everyone close seems foreign
you just look into the mirror for some company
and smile thru the jade and the scorn
Your friends told you not to love him
your daddy says you been warned
but you don’t see colors how they do
you say black the new orange
but if a cold front comes in today
how are you gonna stay warm
when you can’t touch him when u need to
so you just wrap your arms and hug your-self love
you love him, ’cause you got self love
he loves you, ’cause you got self love
they fear for you, ’cause they ain’t got self love
love your-self, love your-self love
you don’t need no help love
’cause you got self-love-your-self love
Your Way
You never know what ain’t enough,
til it ain’t enough
you never know that pain is love,
until your pain is love
because you love your pain,
in love with pain
that’s his name
50 shades of grayer pain painted with your brush
you never know you making love,
until you making up
you never know you down
until you chasing up
you never know you biting pride,
until you tasting blood
you never listen to them,
lift your middle finger up
because most rather judge
before they lift a finger up