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Mothman

July 1, 2021 by Russell Wardlow Leave a Comment

tough guy
I see your truth
scared man child
boy
grow up
I smell your fear
the pounds of flesh you pound
projects the pounding you feel
tough guy
emote
tell your truth
if you’re really so tough
OK then
I’m scared!
I’ve hurt for so long
so so so long
I’m tired
I’m ashamed
I’m heavy dark lost empty
no one loves me know me
no one knows me love me
dead daddy, prison mother baby
I have no place
I place myself
accept me
neglect me
no one was ever there to protect me
I’m sorry I hurt people
why is life like this to me
I used to be innocent… a time so so so long ago
I can not remember when
I can not remember childhood
I just want love
just want to love
I’m no tough guy
this bad guy created
to protect wounded abused child
child never had chance
to be child… ish
trauma never says, ‘ouch’
it transforms
cry.

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Prose of a Con is a collection of Russell Wardlow’s prose and poetry written entirely behind bars. Through writings on family, spirituality, freedom, love, justice, redemption, and vulnerability, Russell seeks to show the humanity and hope of individuals like himself who are incarcerated.

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