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Poetry and Prose by Russell Wardlow

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Illusion of Conformity

April 1, 2020 by Russell Wardlow Leave a Comment

Been lonely for so long
though so afraid to stay lonely
afraid of company
afraid of companions
I need companion…ship?
or maybe company
but what will company want from me,
when it comes for me?
have no-things,
and nothing to offer
if I am the offer-its not much of an offer
don’t pick me up
go head-let me down
no need for pick-me-ups
used to being a let down
used to being let down
rather stay down
downing
downer
downward
drowning
droning
drowsy
drifting
dreaming
what’s more lonely than sleeping?
pray you wake up!
wrong company makes you lonely still
peering through your illusion-I notice we’re both alone
only you have yet to notice,
what I decided to know
sometimes,
hate I ever woke up
can’t sleep a life away
don’t sleep your life away
you’ve slept your life away
although I may die today
however lonely,
at least the least I can say,
is, I’m awake

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Prose of a Con

Prose of a Con is a collection of Russell Wardlow’s prose and poetry written entirely behind bars. Through writings on family, spirituality, freedom, love, justice, redemption, and vulnerability, Russell seeks to show the humanity and hope of individuals like himself who are incarcerated.

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