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Paralysis

January 21, 2020 by Russell Wardlow Leave a Comment

Some days I think I fell and must’ve bust my head-

I see stars

never knowing where I stand-

the floors gone

balancing on wobbly legs-

an earthquake

feeling every step is near the ledge-

oops

I never seem to understand-

I’m con-fused

everything you claim to have said-

am I deaf?

only hearing your judgement in my head-

I’m guilty?

makes me wonder what the hell I plead-

no contest it only made me need you less and less-

like weight gain

I think I must’ve fell and bumped my head-

migraines..

waking on the wrong side of the bed-

I’m cranky seeing more of you at my worst times-

feel I’m dizzy you only remind me, of my worst times-

you been busy

listen to you? do you listen to yourself

besides,

how can you help me, if you can’t see that you need help

try lifting me up, I feel buried

say its tough love, but I feel the contrary

everything you say gets contradicted

no wonder I struggle with confidence

using me like condiments

doing things for compliments-

you’re welcome

whats the moral of a story

when you you only tell a morsel of the story

there’s no gift in giving something you don’t want

don’t tell me loss is good,

just to feel you’ve won

damn!

you make me feel I fell and bust my head

I no longer feel my arms and legs-

I’m paralyzed

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Prose of a Con

Prose of a Con is a collection of Russell Wardlow’s prose and poetry written entirely behind bars. Through writings on family, spirituality, freedom, love, justice, redemption, and vulnerability, Russell seeks to show the humanity and hope of individuals like himself who are incarcerated.

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