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eh mhm!

August 10, 2018 by Russell Wardlow Leave a Comment

I admit, I still hurt inside
I still struggle with finding the source of where most of my pain derives
I still try to act like I got it all figured out, my most proud lie
They confuse something being wrong if I’m silent because I’m viewed as the loud type
I’m a convict, proud of my conquest, and all I’ve accomplished
fought my past, but it was no contest
can’t plead no contest
because I was viewed guilty far before I had to accept my guilty conscience
A failed father, my kids have never truly felt my love
One has never felt my hug, and the other doesn’t remember too much
A failed boyfriend, I don’t think I can ever truly settle down
No longer boyish, I respect women to a whole new level now
And value conversation more than the thought of dressing them down
Explaining that to a woman, hmm, how’d that sound?
I’m no misogynist
but I’m a man, so the sad part is that it isn’t so obvious
I know I can learn more from one woman than a group of men
but what woman would want life with a man that rather not be surrounded by a group of men
so many stereotypes I’ve been grouped in
getting a job was just as hard before my felony- I know too much now…I only wish I knew then

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Prose of a Con

Prose of a Con is a collection of Russell Wardlow’s prose and poetry written entirely behind bars. Through writings on family, spirituality, freedom, love, justice, redemption, and vulnerability, Russell seeks to show the humanity and hope of individuals like himself who are incarcerated.

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